You are constantly racing, ever striving, seeking any possible way to move forward in life. You are working overtime, staying late, and going in early, all in the supposed pursuit of keeping your head above water and getting ahead. You are lying to yourself. You are doing it all because you know that the moment you stop, you will be confronted with the utter and complete futileness of your very existence. Your domestic expenses and surging credit debts are a signpost pointing at your many endeavors to fill the void you call a life.
Let off the gas pedal. Look around you. When was the last time you didn’t? Tomorrow, you should find a cloverfield. Not a giant movie monster, a literal field of clover. Do not do anything but breathe, and look, and breathe. Sweep away the thoughts that threaten to compel you back onto the rails of your fast moving death train, and look, and breathe, and look.
You will find it, and then, you can get back to digging that hole you call reality. The difference is that now, you will have a souvenir for your children to sell for 21 zlotys on ebay when you are dead.
